HOPE

‘I am leaving’, he said. Her body immediately began to tremble, and trying not to drown in a pool of tears, she manages to utter the words, ‘What do you mean?’. She’s afraid of what he might say and honestly, she knows exactly what he means. Without hesitation and much care, he responds in a harsh tone, ‘What do you mean what do I mean? I am leaving YOU! Geez. You don’t understand English now?”

She began to cry and immediately goes down on her knees. ‘William please’, she begged, ‘we can make it work. I will try harder, I promise. Please don’t leave me, please.’ He pushed her out of the way and heads to the bedroom. She runs after him, still begging.

To be healed

To be loved

To be appreciated

This is all she wants, it’s all she’s ever wanted.

Many came, promised her the world.

More left. It was always one thing or the other.

It’s either ‘She was too good’ or that ‘She wasn’t enough’

And now she’s with a man, who beats her but she tolerates it because well, at least he shows her some ‘love’. That’s better than not getting any, she would tell herself.

He was packing to leave but she couldn’t let him. She couldn’t imagine life without him. So she did what she thought was the only way to keep him. She removed all her clothes. Bare, she presented herself to him. William was pleased every time she had done this. She did it because she couldn’t lose him! Besides, it was her fault he was leaving, that’s what he said, so she needed to fix it. See that’s what happens when you sleep with the devil. She couldn’t build up the courage to leave even when she wanted to. Everything was bittersweet. More bitter, actually. She had little moments of euphoria, and that was only when he said he loved her which was usually after beating her up or when he was exploring her intimate parts. At first she used to feel disgusted and ashamed of what she had done the day after but now, she is at a stage of numbness. She has reached the point where she had lost all dignity that she has ever had just so that she could be accepted by this man.

He smiles, knowing he’s about to get his way. He kisses her softly and well, gets his way with her. He gets up and she doesn’t understand why he still wants to leave. ‘William, where are you going? I made it all better now. Please stay’. He laughs at her and with disgust in his eyes he says to her, ‘You’re pathetic. What did you think? That I love you? Never. No one can ever love someone like you!”

Man, was she broken.  The problem was that the person she thought would heal her was the exact person who caused the pain.

Somebody please, tell her! Tell her that there is a man. A man who laid down his life for her. FOR HER. A man who truly understands. Tell her, William is and will always be wrong because there is indeed a man who loves her, and always will. A man who calls her beautiful. William never called her that. A man who calls her beloved. A man who calls her HIS.

Somebody needs to tell her. Somebody needs to remind her of who she is, because it seems ast hough she had forgotten. Oh somebody, anybody, tell somebody about Jesus’ love for them. No one can and should live like this when there is JESUS.

The world needs HOPE and you have it inside of you. Share it.